J***u
发帖数: 51 | 1 How God’s Spirit Has Brought Remarkable Changes To My
Life
Part One: Witness to God’s Love For Me
While my husband was suffering from Pakinson disease, from the summer
of 2005 to the summer of 2010, I was exhausted physically and mentally,
attending to his need and seeing his illness worsening day after day. I had
some symptoms of depression and worry without knowing it, unable to fall
asleep at night. I saw my future was full of darkness. Negative feelings
took control of me so much that I had no desire to live any more, even to
the point of harboring intention to commit suicide. My son sensed something
abnormal with me and forced me to be hospitalized for an overall check-up.
Eleven days in hospital, I was diagnosed as Depression and Anxiety, apart
from chronic gastritis and slight urine infection.
I have a son and a daughter. As the daughter lives in America, far away
from Shanghai, China, my daughter-in-law took me to her home when I was out
of hospital. She was very kind to enlighten me and take care of me, saying:
Mum, you have no reasons whatsoever not to live a good life, considering
all the good conditions you have. Don’t ever feel discouraged by Father’s
state of illness. Then she compared her parents’ life in the countryside
with ours. Her mother has serious cancer-like disease and her father, a
doctor in Chinese medicine, takes good care of her ,even though he himself
has pains at the knees and other joints. I was really moved by her heartfelt
concern for me, not only in words----she bought and cooked special food for
me every day. After one month and a half in my son’s home, I went back to
my own apartment near my school, one hour and half’s ride by car from my
son’s place. Life seemed so difficult for me to live alone, physically and
mentally---I had to hire a maid to do the housework two hours on daily basis.
As is destined, something miraculous is due to happen to me. One day I
met a pious Christian sister while we were waiting for physical therapy in a
line outside for our turn. We chatted for a while and she taught me a hymn
on spot. When she knew my situation she showed great concern for me. One day
, she came to my home, presented me with two Bibles and a few hymn tapes.
She massaged me, on the head, the spine, the stomach, and then taught me to
say prayer together with her. She prayed for me so whole-heartedly that I
was really touched by her timely help when I was badly in need.
From then on, I go to a Christian church on Sundays. At that time I was too
weak to walk some distance all on my own without company. I had to take a
taxi which charged 16 yuan(RMB) at a time. After the service back home, I
started to review the songs I learned at the church. I sang the songs
whenever I felt like. After supper, I used to sing spiritual songs which
release my pent-up sad feelings and relax my mind. By and by, God’s light
shines upon me, even takes deep root in my heart. Spiritual light drove out
darkness from my body and mind. I began to smile again in life. On the cold
winter nights of 2009, I finished reading the New Testament, both in English
version and in Chinese version. By comparison I can better comprehend the
meanings of the Scriptures. Before going to bed I pray to God and Jesus
sincerely ever since I do Sunday service.
For one year and more I kept my routine like this: doing service on Sundays,
sing spiritual songs after supper, then read the Bible and pray before
going to bed, until one day it dawned upon me that God’s love and holy
Spirit have healed my spiritual wound(my depression and anxiety). I wanted
to go traveling to the countryside where a friend of mine has a vacant house
for my use! Life is getting as joyful as before. To express my hearty
thanks to Jehovah, God, I was baptized on June 27, 2010; I have faith in
Jesus who died in my place as a ransom for my sin and resurrected in three
days. Jesus is our savior.
Part Two: My Transformation Of Old Self Into New One
When God’s spirit operates in my life, it has brought me love, joy, and
peace.
God’s love for the world ,for us is so vast that he gave his only son who
died for our sake, in order to save us from sin and give eternal life to
those who believes in him. Only love can save the world. I worship God,
willing to do as he commands, to show more love for the needy, the old and
the weak, and help people in hard times. I love fellow Christians and enjoy
their fellowship every time I do service together with them. God’s great
love transforms us into upright Christians, transforms my life totally. I
often help the sister who is poor and has economic odds in my living
quarters. I often go and see my colleague, my neighbor, who has got a stroke
. I cherish a loving heart, ready to help others.
Learning Scriptures and doing worship service lift my spirit, enhance my
knowledge of God, who is real around us, who is pure, holy, kind, the real
light that shines on all men alike. As God’s spirit operates in my life, I
gain wisdom, courage and joy to tackle life problems. When I pass my joy to
others, I feel more joyful. There is more happiness in giving than in
receiving. My religious life fills my heart with joy. I view the world from
an entirely new perspective, quite different from the old one. Life becomes
so joyful, full of things worthy of praise of God.
There is no peace in the material world among human beings, who have too
many desires to be gratified. The pursuit for wealth, fame, position, and
power gives rise to clashes, conflicts and continuous struggles among men,
who will resort to every kind of means for personal interests, such as
fighting, deceit, slander, murder……All men are sinful. However, those who
have faith in Jehovah through Christ Jesus can be saved from sin and given
eternal life.
When I was baptized, my old self was put to death with Christ on his cross
and I was reborn spiritually in union with Christ. God’s spirit gives me
peace of mind as I am no longer worried about my present life and my future.
God, our heavenly Father, gives me wisdom, courage, strength and confidence
so that I am able to face the present world in a peaceful state of mind and
tackle various problems in life. I resolve to offer myself as a living
sacrifice to God, dedicated to his service and pleasing to him.
My life has become joyful, peaceful, meaningful, worth of living. | i*****t
发帖数: 24265 | 2 hallelujah，praise the Lord!
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had
【在 J***u 的大作中提到】
: How God’s Spirit Has Brought Remarkable Changes To My
: Life
:
: Part One: Witness to God’s Love For Me
: While my husband was suffering from Pakinson disease, from the summer
: of 2005 to the summer of 2010, I was exhausted physically and mentally,
: attending to his need and seeing his illness worsening day after day. I had
: some symptoms of depression and worry without knowing it, unable to fall
: asleep at night. I saw my future was full of darkness. Negative feelings
: took control of me so much that I had no desire to live any more, even to
| l*****a
发帖数: 38403 | 3 你在做什么？
发信人: Joylu (Juan), 信区: TrustInJesus
标 题: 见证上帝对我的爱
关键字: 忧郁，检查，奇迹，礼拜，复活
发信站: BBS 未名空间站 (Fri Jul 1 22:11:35 2011, 美东)
神灵如何改变了我的生活
第一部分：上帝爱我的见证
我老伴从2005年夏至于2010年夏患帕金森病深受折磨，而我体力上和精神上精疲力
尽，每日照顾他，眼睁睁地看着他的病情越来越不好。不知不觉，我自己有了焦虑和忧
郁的症状；晚上睡不着觉，只看到自己的前程一片漆黑。负面的情绪紧紧地抓着我，控
制了我，我没有活下去的意念，甚至到想自杀的地步。我的儿子感觉到我有点异常，逼
迫我住进医院作全面检查。住院十一天，医生的诊断结论是：焦虑忧郁症，还伴有慢性
胃炎及轻度的尿路感染。
我有一儿一女。女儿在美国，我出院的那天，媳妇把我接回她家，媳妇很善良，除
了照顾公公之外，还要照顾我这位婆婆。她不断地开导我，鼓励我要好好地活下去。她
说：“妈妈，你没有任何的理由不好好地活下去。你目前的生活条件都很好，不要因为
爸爸的病情，就失去了生活的勇气。” 然后，她把她农村的父母如何生活的同我在上
海的生活相比较：她母亲也患有癌症之类的不治之症，红斑琅疮，爸爸是中医生，就精
心地给她调理，也不是活到现在，尽管他爸爸为了妈妈一下子老了好多，而且自己还有
关节炎。我确实被媳妇由衷的关心而感动。她不仅仅话说的好，每天给我买和烧我独特
的食品。我在儿子家住了一个半月，就回到我自己的家。离儿子的家乘车要一个半小时
。单独一个人生活，对当时的我，无论体力上和精神上显得那么的困难！我就雇了一位
钟点工阿姨，每天二小时帮做家务。
如命运的安排，奇迹般的事必然会发生，降临在我身上。有一天，我遇到一位全虔
的基督教姐妹。当时我俩排在队伍的前后准备做免费的理疗，要等半小时。我们就随意
地聊起来。她当时就教我一首赞美诗，我觉得很好听，唱几遍就学会了。后来也接触了
几次，当她知道我的处境时，非常地关心我。她约好上我家来看我。那天，她给了我二
本圣经（一本字小，一本字大的），还给我几盘赞美诗的磁带。她给我全身按摩，还一
起唱赞美诗。她教我一起祷告。她全心全意地为我祷告。当我生活最困难时，她给了我
及时的帮助。她的热情和真诚确使我非常感动。
从那时开始，我就坚持星期日去教堂做礼拜。当时我虚弱得连路都走不动，只好打
的去，每次16元。做好礼拜回家当天，我就自学自唱教的赞美诗，真好听，越唱越开心
，忘记忧愁和烦恼。晚饭后，也天天唱，释放久压在心中的不快，使大脑得到放松，使
心静下来。渐渐地我感觉到神的光照在我身上，而且进入我体内，在心中札根。心中有
神的阳光，赶走了我肉体和心灵上阴暗的东西。生活中，我开始又有了笑容。2009年寒
冬的晚上，我坚持读完圣经的新约部分，英汉对照地读，就能更好地理解原文的意思。
上床前向上帝和基督祷告，把心中的话全向神倾诉，与神沟通。自从我星期日做礼拜后
，我坚持天天祈祷。
一年多过去了，我坚持这样的生活常规：星期天做礼拜，晚饭后唱赞美诗，之后读
一段圣经经文，上床前祈祷。直到有一天我醒悟到上帝的爱和圣灵的作用治好了我的精
神上的创伤（焦虑和忧郁症）。我决定出门到乡下去走一走,农村的朋友有一幢空房可
供我用，我就约了一位亲戚同行。我的生活又有了往日的快乐和安宁。由衷感谢耶和华
上帝的救命之恩，我于2010年六月二十七日进行了洗礼。我相信耶稣为赎我的罪为我而
死，三天后他复活了。他是我的救主。 | B********0
发帖数: 1153 | 4 How marvelous! God is love and He saves!
summer
had
【在 J***u 的大作中提到】
: How God’s Spirit Has Brought Remarkable Changes To My
: Life
:
: Part One: Witness to God’s Love For Me
: While my husband was suffering from Pakinson disease, from the summer
: of 2005 to the summer of 2010, I was exhausted physically and mentally,
: attending to his need and seeing his illness worsening day after day. I had
: some symptoms of depression and worry without knowing it, unable to fall
: asleep at night. I saw my future was full of darkness. Negative feelings
: took control of me so much that I had no desire to live any more, even to
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